A Girl’s Story

Bland

October 1, 2009 · Leave a Comment

I drank a cup of my life today. And it’s bland. The last time that I remember it tasting so bland was when I was in school (pri, sec, pre-u). It haven’t tasted like that ever since I enter University.

It had a taste of busi-ness, isolated yet fulfilled. It tasted of friendships that were always just around the corner. It tasted of new modules, new topics, new knowledge. It tasted of the sun, the mud (literally, it happens when you dive), the sweat, the victory, the defeat, the butterflies in the stomach before a match, the fatigue after one.

It tasted of freedom. The freedom to choose when to wake, when to skip class or skip your day away. The freedom to think that “ooooohh it’s ok, I’m still in school everything else can wait”.

This cup of life is too bland. I tried adding somethings.. drinking, partying, playing and what-nots. But it just doesn’t seem right. It’s still bland with a tinge of tiredness, confusion, emptiness.

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I’m a Bitch

September 17, 2009 · Leave a Comment

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mooody.. moooody.. mooooooooooooodyyyyy

September 10, 2009 · Leave a Comment

i’m not feeling too good..
Not good, not good..

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A Friend Like Henry

September 8, 2009 · Leave a Comment

I have a friend. His name is Henry.
He is a male.
He is patient, caring, nice and he loves me.
I know.. he loves me.

But I am not sure, if I can love him back… 
at least the way he loves me.

Henry oh Henry.. wat should I do..
No, I already knew wat I should do.. 
I just don wish to do wat I should do..
I hate being told wat to do.. I had enough..
I want to live.. I want to live a life that’s mine..
No one to dictate it cept me.. cept ME !!

Can I, May I, Shall I, Should I..?

             

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Random

September 5, 2009 · Leave a Comment

Who doesn’t long for someone to hold,
Who knows how to love you without being told.
Somebody tell me why I’m on my own,
If there’s a soulmate for everyone.

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Blacks Midnight 10s

September 4, 2009 · 2 Comments

Recently Blacks held their annual event – Blacks Midnight 10s. It used to be known as the Midnight 7s. This is the first year that the club decided to change the game for both men and women to 10s. And I was honored to be approached by both Blacks and NUS to play for them. I wanted to play for NUS because it’s been so long since the last time we played together. But I was held up by work, my trainers gave me materials for my exams at the very last min. So I have no choice but to tell both the coaches from Blacks and NUS that I cannot commit for trainings and so I wouldn’t be able to play for them.

But I underestimated myself, I was able to finish the files in time. So I went to watch the matches on Friday night. I was itching on the stand and so tempted to play. But yea.. my gears were all at home.

Just as I was feeling rather sian, Tabi (Blacks Rangers coach) came up and asked “you want to play?” I was abit shocked.. I mean of coz I want. But I’ve already told both teams that I’m not playing and secondly I don’t have the gears with me. But I told her yes, and that I don have my gears. So she said “ok, I have. Follow me to my car, we’ll get you changed.” By now, I am seriously stunned. So yea with my opened jaw I followed her to her car. And true enough, she’s got everything from scrum cap to tape for my ankle.

Haha.. I was all ready to go in 30 mins.. I got my game.. against NUS.. the last match of the day.. oh yes.. and if you wonder why am I not playing with NUS, coz both Tabi and I spoke to Wing (NUS coach) and she said that NUS has got 16 players.. but Blacks Rangers only had 12 or 13 I think.. Yea, so Wing said I can play for Blacks.

The game was at 1 plus am.. which seriously was passed our sleeping time so many of us were trying to concentrate. But yea, we managed to win the game. That’s it for the 1st night.

On the second day, everyone was all ready to go. We have 3 matches on that day, 1st up against the Thai Babas. Man, they are fast. I get to start the game. Was positioning myself beside Esther, and was ready to receive and do our moves. But as I was turning the Thai ran straight into my knee.. left knee.. Damn I had dead leg for a few minutes. Tabi decided to take me out. I was quite disappointed then, but looking back, that was the right decision. (sorry Tabi, for giving you the frustrated look)

Blacks Rangers made to the semi-finals. For the last match, we are up against Bucks RFC. I tell you that was the best match ever.. the whole team was so psych-up.. we were all hunger for the win, every single one was just waiting to be let onto the field to “mao” someone. And true enough we played like we never did.. and everyone agreed. After the match, ppl came up to us to congratulate us. Oli told me that we’re the best development squad that Blacks had so far. I was really v happy and honored to receive such a comment. The Rangers really played their hearts, lungs, guts and whatever internal organs out.. We ran like we’ve never ran before, we tackled like we’ve never tackled before, we were so disciplined in organizing our line of attack and quick to bounce back to defense that sometimes I wonder how did I get so much energy to do so.

Yea that was the best match that I played. Thank you Rangers for being there, and Tabi for giving me the chance to this awesome team.

Blacks Rangers – Plate Winner of Blacks Midnight 10s 2009.

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A Little (late) Update

September 3, 2009 · Leave a Comment

I was so busy that I kind of forget that I have a blog.. haha..
Ok… a quick update.. I started working in MOM on the 20th July..
So yea.. most of the mornings and afternoons of July and August are spent in heaps of case files and laws.. I find working in MOM rather interesting.. And would look forward to learning new things and getting started with the real thing.. Ok maybe a little of wat I’m doing in MOM.. I am with the legal services side of MOM and is tasked with the job of prosecuting.. This, I feel is something that is unique and refreshing unlike, sorry to say.. other conventional jobs.. I look forward to opening the door of wisdom and experiences.. =D

Oh yes.. I just ended my mock exam yesterday.. phew thank god it is over.. It was so stressful.. the preparation and the examination process.. my goodness.. oh well.. it’s OVER !!!

 So yea.. here is the update of this new baby in my life..

                

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A Letter to Ankle

July 2, 2009 · 3 Comments

Dear Ankle (left one),
firstly I wana apologise for the trauma that I brought you during the friendly with Dingos.. Yeah, I should be more prepared even though it was a late tackle.. I will be more careful in future.. Another thing.. I know you have to rest and minimise movements, but sometimes it can’t be helped. I need to use you to travel to school/ SA for trainings.. You know I need to look after the rest of my body too.. So yea, hope you can understand..

4th of July.. is the start of the NRC league..
It is the contact season.. And this is the first time that I am part of it..

I’m so excited.. but at the same time am worried.. because I’m afraid that you’re still not ready to get into contact. Since you can’t really express yourself, it is quite difficult for me to assess your condition. I think all I can do is pray that you are ok.. I’ll strap you up nicely so that you’ll have enough cushioning.. So yea.. don’t worry i’ll take care of you as best as I can.. But you have to help me out too, I can’t be out for too long.. So yea.. let me get back on my feet soon huh..

Your Owner,
Pegan Chong

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Sea Breeze~

June 30, 2009 · Leave a Comment

I got a chance to watch the sea.. and enjoy the breeze recently..

I begin to think that..

God created the sea to make us sea-sick..
God created the sun to let us have heat stroke..
God created you so I can hate…

Then I thought perhaps..

God created the sea to house creatures that are so different from us..
God created the sun to let us admire the other creations..
God created you so that I can learn how to love..
Loving someone nice & sweet is easy..
but to be able to love someone that is not.. is not..

Some say we are in living hell.. others think this world is beautiful..
I say.. It’s a matter of perspective..

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New Life – with a job

June 29, 2009 · Leave a Comment

7th of July marks the end of my student life..
Until now, I’ve only know how to be a good student..
The goals of being a good student.. are pretty straight forward..
* Attend all lectures & tutorials
* Hand up your assignments on time
* Mug for exams
* Participate during tutorials
* Make sure you choose the correct project mates
* Get Good Grades

Now that I am graduating.. I have to learn from scratch..
How to be a good worker.. (seriously no clue)
I hope my new colleagues wont be too hard on me.. =(
Am really quite worried about working..
- the mundane routine of waking up at the same time to get ready
- traveling on crowded train and buses
- it gets worse on a rainy day
- hours of sitting in front of the computer
- the expensive food & transport cost (coz no more concession)
- the new colleagues
- the new expectations of me

My god.. when is the deadline to register for Masters?
I WANA GO BACK TO SCHOOL

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